The Real Nicole.

Today i went to day 1 of leadership school. i went not expecting to learn that much since i'd been to many differnt leadership things before but man was my mind blown with how i was challenged. Session one was about embracing your calling to leadership and how there are tWo main fears which stop us...the first being our fear of what ability we have and the second being the fear of failure. We had a time of reflection after the session and i sat in Gods presence and listened... i was really challenged to work with youth but wasnt sure how ... i also struggled with the idea of following gods call when it was against what my parents want me to achieve and become. i declared to God that no matter what i would follow this call on my life Session two was about having a heart for God and being passionate, broken and sold out. to be this type of person you need to... 1.be ministering to people where they are in thier life...take ministry to them 2.not give up during the hard times 3. p

today i went to Preaching school, it was awesome... i learnt so much about how to preach and felt a calling on my life to preach Gods word. Half way through the day i had a major headache and was struggling to concentrate...i went up to the speaker Neil at the end of one of the sessions and asked if there was any panadol i could take...he asked if he could pry for my headache first...after the prayer my headache went away...i thought that was so cool... i was talknig to Neil about Gods healing power and he said Gods only as powerful as you let him be...my first thought was but Gods Gods...hes either there or not there...btu waht Neil was really saying was if we actually believe that God can heal and God can do crazy miricles he will. God also spoke a word on my life at the end of the day...i was questioning God on if i was truely called to preach of if it was my pride and maybe others wishes that were my motives....GOd said Nicole, you are a preacher through actions and words...i want

I'm not perfect, i stuff up, i get tired and i get angry. Everyone carries stuff and takes turns and bad times in life. its the way life works. that doesnt mean you just have to push through the tough times and keep fighting. im not suggesting giving up i saying you need time to spend on your own resting. this year for me has gone so fast. i only have 16 weeks till the end of the school year, and with that short time comes so much pressure. pressure to increase my grades from this term, pressure to enjoy my time at school as its the last chance i have and pressure to get my life sorted out for the future. this year is crazy. if im completey honest with you i will tell you, i dont know everything, and right now i cant deal with anything. this yeasr has brought so many tears so many tantrums and some very loyal friends and leaders who were willing to tell me how it was and not be afraid for me to yell at them, hate them, not talk to them and eventually say sorry when i realis