2020 vision

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Today i took a few of my youth kids to a youth conference. it was a great conference and totally awesome to see people of so many different ages, worshipping and serving wholeheartedly. In the talks the speaker talked about having a vision for 2020 and looking toward that goal now, and working at that now. All the young people in that room will have finished high school by 2020, and be adults of at least 20y/o which is about how old i am, which was weird as i sat there thinking about that. i thought about where i wanted to be in 2020 - thats 8 years away making me 28 years old!

There is so many things i hope i have achieved by then, but i am so confused and challeneged by what God wants me to have done and be doing by then.

i always imagined i would be married
  - with a child or two by the time i was 28
i WILL be finished studying!
I think i want to be a youth pastor
  I think i want to do ministry
  i want to have travelled overseas before im 28

How do i achieve this?
Is this what God wants me to do?
How do i do the whole ministry/youth pastor/ finish studying thing if i am married with kids?
- Am i better waiting until my kids get older?
- Do i not have kids?
- Where am i finding this man?

i have no idea what the future will hold, not because im living aimlessly in the moment but rather because as i take every step towards the future i see different options for me, i see paths i can take and i see challenges and other doors close on me. Is it possible to know where Gods calling you before you walk through that door or is life like the image i have of walking down a coridoor, opening a few doors having a look around or seeing the door is locked until eventually you come to a door which Jesus is holding open for you and welcoming you into.

  so im pretty confused at the moment. Lots of people say they see great leadership in me and a real passion for young people. People say all these great things about my leadership etc but my question is how to i get there and what will it look like when i get there and how long will this vision last, i love youth and can't imagine doing anything else but is a youth leaders life limited? Anyone have thoughts?

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