The Real Nicole.

i think everyone at one or more stages in life has looked at themself and questioned how they look or thought themself as fat and hated flaws in themself. Although its true that we all ahve flaws and that noone is perfect i think there is real beauty in firstly who u are on the inside and how that shines out and through ur actions. i also wholeheartedly believe in the fact that we were made in Gods image and that God created us and he thinks we are beautiful no matter what...thats really cool if you ask me. Psalm 139 13-17 says… Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out; you formed me in my mother’s womb. I thank you, High God—you’re breathtaking! Body and soul, I am marvelously made! I worship in adoration—what a creation! You know me inside and out, you know every bone in my body; You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something. Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out ...

i apologies if this comes across rude or not what ppl are wanting or expecting to hear... sometimes the right thing is the hardest to hear and hardest to do...this is why i have to share what im feeling... Some things in this world make me feel so angry and so hopeless in times. Things such as poverty and slavery in developing countries snd how little people in our society know about whats going on. And how many people are apathetic to everything that doesnt effect them. i hate that society tells us we need to be skinnier and have clearer skin. i hate that young people look up to models in magazines and adverts and yet companies photoshop and edit pictures to make models more beautiful or skinner... it makes me mad that people look to these images and feel insecure and like they dont measure up and are worth nothing. it makes me so angry when i walk down the street and guys call sexual comments out the window as they drive past. why cant someone walk around without hearing these co...

In the holidays i was at a leadership and Preaching school and Neil the speaker was talking with me and he said something about the church of the future is actually the church now and there is no reason why we can't achieve great things now as young people. At the time i thought about me and my small group and what we could do to be the church now not someone that sits in the pews for 10 years waiting to be grown up so we can make a difference. i thought about making regular time to pray for the community as a community and even by helping with little jobs around the place. i decided to try adn get more young people in the welcoming at church as im the person making the roster and challenging my friends to find out one new fact about someone each week. the last few weeks ive been more and more challenged about the girls in my kids church group and how im impacting their life so that they too can actively be part of gods church now and not in the future. the verse 1 timothy 4:12 c...

God is constantly teaching me and the more i learn to sit and listen the more God reveals to me. God has put so much on my heart lately, and im learning more about the opportunities it leads too and about following that call as soon as God says it rather then waiting and seeing. God is telling me about Prayer adn being faithful in my Prayer life... this is something i struggle with a lot as im often someone who will pray in difficult times but doesnt always rejoice with God in the good and constantly pray for people like i want to. God is teaching me about the importance of prayer and how he truely does answer and speak if your willing to listen. God is speaking to me about my money and using it wisely and for his glory. God really spoke to me on friday night and challenged me to step out in my faith by giving some money to someone and trusting God to supply me with my needs. this was such a scary idea because as a young person i was hesitant to give money to others when i know im...

Today i went to day 1 of leadership school. i went not expecting to learn that much since i'd been to many differnt leadership things before but man was my mind blown with how i was challenged. Session one was about embracing your calling to leadership and how there are tWo main fears which stop us...the first being our fear of what ability we have and the second being the fear of failure. We had a time of reflection after the session and i sat in Gods presence and listened... i was really challenged to work with youth but wasnt sure how ... i also struggled with the idea of following gods call when it was against what my parents want me to achieve and become. i declared to God that no matter what i would follow this call on my life Session two was about having a heart for God and being passionate, broken and sold out. to be this type of person you need to... 1.be ministering to people where they are in thier life...take ministry to them 2.not give up during the hard times 3. p...

today i went to Preaching school, it was awesome... i learnt so much about how to preach and felt a calling on my life to preach Gods word. Half way through the day i had a major headache and was struggling to concentrate...i went up to the speaker Neil at the end of one of the sessions and asked if there was any panadol i could take...he asked if he could pry for my headache first...after the prayer my headache went away...i thought that was so cool... i was talknig to Neil about Gods healing power and he said Gods only as powerful as you let him be...my first thought was but Gods Gods...hes either there or not there...btu waht Neil was really saying was if we actually believe that God can heal and God can do crazy miricles he will. God also spoke a word on my life at the end of the day...i was questioning God on if i was truely called to preach of if it was my pride and maybe others wishes that were my motives....GOd said Nicole, you are a preacher through actions and words...i want ...

I'm not perfect, i stuff up, i get tired and i get angry. Everyone carries stuff and takes turns and bad times in life. its the way life works. that doesnt mean you just have to push through the tough times and keep fighting. im not suggesting giving up i saying you need time to spend on your own resting. this year for me has gone so fast. i only have 16 weeks till the end of the school year, and with that short time comes so much pressure. pressure to increase my grades from this term, pressure to enjoy my time at school as its the last chance i have and pressure to get my life sorted out for the future. this year is crazy. if im completey honest with you i will tell you, i dont know everything, and right now i cant deal with anything. this yeasr has brought so many tears so many tantrums and some very loyal friends and leaders who were willing to tell me how it was and not be afraid for me to yell at them, hate them, not talk to them and eventually say sorry when i realis...