Just be real about it with God

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Sometimes things just suck, sometimes life hurts and sometimes things just get too much.

If im really honest that reflects whats going on my my head a lot recently. On the outside i seem to have it under control, i look happy i seem to be going places. but inside im screaming out for help, i feel empty, alone, lonely, bored and disinterested. Everything seems too hard..but its too nice a weather to cry.

I was emailing my young adults pastor and said this to him, and replied just be real about it with God.

I was like what?! wow! thats kinda cool.

God cares about our real issues and how we feel about stuff. i've spent so long getting to a place in my life where i can be real with my emotions to myslef but also to a few select others but i hadnt really thought about getting real about it with God.

my prayer for my life is for real, raw and honest chats with God. For the decication , faith and belief in handing over my stuff to him. my prayer is for it to be the first place i turn.

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