living with inetgrity

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INETGRITY... its a pretty big word. Means some pretty tough stuff at times, but stuff which is totally worth it and something in which you can hold your head high.

recently at church the sermon was about living with inetgrity. i was moved by this message as i had felt like i was someone who was pretty honest and someone which didnt really struggle with all that much but the stuff i did struggle with was well hidden and hidden deep away. i came to a realisation... i'm only hiding it from the world. God still knows its there and he still wants me to be honest with it too.. i was heaps challenged with it. i wasnt at a place where there i could confess what i was hiding but i know God wants me to and know how much freer i will be living once ive given it up to him and can live with inetgrity and honesty.

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