Balance

As a child I was often considered clumsy. I often drop things, I trip over, I constantly have bruises from bumping into doors, cupboards, etc. I'm not exactly a model of balance. 

What I really need in my life right now though is balance.  Not so much the ability to not walk into door frames or stand up straight, although that would be helpful. But balance in all that I am doing and managing in life.  

You see recently I over-committed and it wasn't until I was in the thick of it that I realised what a terrible mistake it was.  4 days work in something I absolutely live, but takes a lot of emotional energy, 3 subjects in a Bachelor of Ministry (75% load - full time equivalent), kids club, youth drop in and small group leading, community outreach/drop in at shops, youth ministry nights at my church. Its all a bit too much in a week.  But it gives me life - mostly. But socially it isolates me. 

Living and doing ministry in Naracoorte was isolating for me and some really wise people who supported me throughout my ministry encouraged me to build a life not just a ministry.  They told me when I told them I was returning to Adelaide that it would be a positive thing because I would be close to my support networks, I would be surrounded by friends and I'd be able to have more of a life. 

But I don't. What have I done wrong this year which has meant this hasn't been the case? How do I change this? 

I used to be really popular and have loads of friends and people around all the time.  Now I know lots of people, talk deeply to few and see some people regularly even less often. Is that adulthood? Is that what being social looks like? Did I miss the young adult fun boat? Can someone help me? I feel like I'm drowning, in assignments I don't understand, with responsibilities at times beyond my capabilities, in commitments I'm unsure I'm suited to participating in.